If I'm going to be treated like this, for telling you the truth, when you asked for it, then I might aswell lie to your face then.
Things would be better if I never said anything, and if I had kept this from you, if I lied to you.

If I'm sitting here crying, because of this shit, then in future, I'm going to lie. Don't be surprised if you ever find out what I've been keeping from you.

And you said you don't care about us anymore. If you're not going to care about us anymore, then don't fucking expect us to care about you. It's a two-way street. If you don't care about us, then go find some friends who you do care about, and then they can take care of you.
They can be the ones who tell you the truth, tell you how they feel if they're insecure. They can have mascara running down their face whilst typing this. They can go through this pain. Not me, them.

And you know what? I don't fucking deserve this. I really fucking don't. I don't know where I went wrong. What did I do? Tell you how I felt? Tried to fix things before they got worse? Tell you the truth? Yeah well I've decided that I've given up all hope on you, and I'm going to lie to you now. Just a heads up.