I'm sick of this crap.

I hate how you have changed, and I'm sick of being the friend that you turn to when you have no one else.
I'm sick of being left out, and ignored.
I hate having to hold back my thoughts and feelings, because if anything slips from my mouth, I'm immediately the bad guy. Though if you say anything, or if I'm hurt, it's okay.
I hate how everything has to be your way, or if i suggest anything, you aren't even willing to listen as to what I have to say.
I hate how I'm immediately shut down from you.
I hate lending you a shoulder to cry on, but your not there for me when I need you.
I hate how you can be are so disregarding towards my feelings and opinions. How you completely ignore me.
I'm sick of hearing sorry, and how I continually grant you a second chance, knowing that you will only hurt me again.

But I can not let go of you. I need you. I love you. I hate how I can not even be myself around you anymore. What happened to us? I miss you.